As I sat looking at my lists, I heard a voice, the same voice I heard all those years ago and it said “Look up and tell me what you see.” As I gazed out across the water I could see the land across the other side of the lake. I could see houses and trees, it wasn’t close, it would take a while to get there straight across by boat, but I could see it. Then the voice said “Look to the left and tell me what you see.” To the left was a headland, I could see it clearly. Then the voice said “Look to the right and tell me what you see.” As I looked to the right I saw another headland, it was clearly in sight.
“What do you see beyond the headlands?” I sat and pondered that for a bit. Well naturally I couldn’t see what was around the headlands, I could only see that if I either got in a boat and went around there or drove around there.
Suddenly it dawned on me that the only way I could see what was there was if I decided to go there. Immediately I knew that this was the answer to the question. We don’t know what is around the corner we don’t know what we will encounter along the way. The only way to find out what’s there is to take the journey.
The only way for me to get answers to all that was happening in my life was to decide to make that journey. Decision made and this was what I needed to now speak to my psychologist about.
That weekend, my daughter and I joined all our girl friends from our church on a weekend away at a Conference held for women by Hillsong Church in Sydney, called Colour Conference. We headed away with a real sense of excitement. During the very first night of Conference, whilst in worship a lady in front of me turned to me and said, “I am sorry to interrupt you in worship but I believe God has asked me to tell you something. Is that okay?” I told her that was fine. She simply said “You are like a closed bud but if you allow yourself to be taken out of the shadows and out into the sunshine, you will become a beautiful flower.”
I had no idea who she was and she had no idea what had been going on in my world. I thanked her and I thanked God.
Captivating Freedom 