Days turned into weeks and I found myself looking forward to going to my visits. We discussed many things that were surface issues in those first few weeks. Much of what we went through were really practical steps on how to reduce the panic attacks. This information I soaked up like a sponge and found that I was needing those practical tips more than ever. The panic attacks did not stop, but I was finding that they did not last as long.
I want to break into the story here to say that if you are experiencing panic attacks or any type of anxiety, going to see a professional is so important as they have the expertise to be able to teach you how to manage this. They will also help you to discover why these attacks or why this anxiety is happening, after all, that is the most important step. If we can discover what triggers us, then we are more easily able to work through it.
As each visit ended, I realized that there was much that needed to be dealt with. At this point, however, I didn’t know how hard this was going to be.
It is funny but not funny how things work out. Many would say that it is fate. I choose to believe it is God.
With all the deep things that were happening to me, in reality I would never have gone and seen anyone. I would most likely have covered it up and just kept going. However, the thing that triggered the panic attacks was not the life of lying. Even though I have written about it here like it was something I was totally aware of – it had just become something I did, a part of who I was.
It was going to be a while before we could begin on that. What needed immediate attention was what brought me here in the first place.
Captivating Freedom 