I was having such a great time travelling.
Our home base was in Adelaide and we had just completed 2 months of intensive training. Now I was headed out on tour to Queensland. On the way there we called in to my home and I got to spend some time with my grandparents. I ran out of the front door so excited to be heading off and grandma was watching TV, so I just gave her a peck on the cheek and off I went. We were about to pull away and I clearly remember this feeling coming over me that I had to go back inside and say goodbye to my grandma properly – kiss her and hug her and tell her how much I loved her. So I jumped out of the van and I did just that.
We were in outback Queensland when I got the phone call. Grandma had had a massive heart attack and died. I was devastated. The only way home for me was to catch a bus from Longreach to Brisbane and fly home to Sydney then a bus from Sydney to home. It was the longest trip I have ever taken. I cried all the way.
This was the woman who told me every night that she loved me……. I had lost the most important person in my life.
I can only say that it was a prompting from God that made me go back inside that day to kiss and hug my grandma and tell her I loved her. I am forever grateful for that prompting.
If you ever feel the prompting to do something that you are unsure about – ask yourself one thing – “Is this going to hurt anyone?” If the answer is no – then do it, we don’t know what is coming in life.
After her funeral I went back to Queensland and continued on with my life, but every single day I missed her and even today I miss her still.
I ended up going to the USA with this group of actors and I stayed there for 3 years. Oh, the stories I told about my life in Australia. The funny thing about life on the road – staying in people’s homes that you will never meet again – you can tell them anything. I was telling people all kinds of things and it made me feel so special, everyone wanted to know about this Aussie girl. This had now become a way of life. I could no longer tell that I was lying.
In many ways it was easier because no one ever questioned me and I didn’t have to use my memory as much. Living this life was one of the most dangerous times in my whole life.
Captivating Freedom 