Have you ever been in a situation where you ‘felt’ like your life just didn’t match up to the people you rubbed shoulders with every day?
What do you do in situations like that? Do you just keep quiet or do you try to figure out a way for you to ‘fit in’?
I began feeling that way when I was just a teenager. I felt it at school and worse yet, I felt it at home. As a family, dinner time was always a time when everyone in the family shared about their day. The good, the bad and the ugly. I had two sisters and a step brother and their stories always had everyone engaged and there was lots of laughter.
When it was my turn to share about my day – everyone just kept eating and not once was there any laughter. I felt like I didn’t fit.
One day as we all sat around the table, everyone did their thing and it was my turn. I began to share about something that had happened in my day – I had everyone’s attention and there was quite a bit of chatter about it and the whole family was in stitches of laughter. It felt amazing and for the first time in a very long time – I fitted in.
The only problem was, what I shared wasn’t true. I had made it up. I had lied.
This was the beginning of a very long history of living a life that only existed in my mind…..
Captivating Freedom 